Oliver Nassar

Lottery

But I'd rather be working for a paycheck, than be waitin to win the lottery.

First Day Of My Life by Bright Eyes

There's always been something about train stations, bus stations and airports that I've loved. I didn't know what it was for a long time. But over the past few years, it's become pretty clear to me. I enjoy being in transit. I love being in transit. I love being on the move to somewhere. It could be somewhere I've been before, or a place so foreign to me that I can't even imagine it. But it's this transition; this.. in-between.. that I love.

Ironically, it took me a while-longer to discover why I love doing what I do.

I develop for the web. The reaction I get saying this out loud is pretty consistent with how I answer the question "What did you study in school?". There is.. general surprise.. that someone is willing to do something so monotonous. So boring. There have been times where it's gotten to me. But I knew that the reason I do what I do is because I want to build things. I want to learn how to build things, fail over and over again, and then "succeed". And what do I want to do once I've "succeeded"? Start building again. Being done bores me. I'm not learning anything.

But more than anything, I don't like getting to the finish line without having run and fallen every meter before it. I see no value in it. I haven't learnt from it. That's why cheating never made sense to me. That's why "connections" never made sense to me. That's why winning the lottery doesn't make sense to me. In all of those cases, my sense of having "succeeded" through failure wouldn't exist.

Like travel, it's the transition I value most. It's unknown.